i had to put my cat to sleep today. he was old, and he had hyperthyroid disorder. his metabolism was working overtime, and even with medication, his body ate up all his fat and muscle stores. he could barely walk he was so weak.

on the way to the vet, Van Morrison's "Into the Mystic" came on in the car. then, while i was waiting in the consultation room with my cat, "Into the Mystic" came on over the speakers in the Petsmart in which my vet is located.

maybe someone was trying to tell me it was okay to let him go and say goodbye.

*curls up in a ball* i miss my kitty.